"no baby.. im just starting to fall uncontrollably deep for you"




OH NO.

all I want for Christmas is to fly to LA to see this awesome woman.

today's workout at the studio - kickboxing

we started at 9pm

- attacks with a short bamboo stick 4 combos, 20 reps each combo
-400 shadow uppercuts
-200 lunge+back raise combo
-200 "croco" kicks with the punching bag ( more like bag of cement )
-100 jab+cross with the punching bag

ended close to 1 am!

the boys had to do some other crazy workouts. there was only 7 of us in Nizam's private class but the sweat produced was like a class of 20. puddles everywhere. YEURGHK.

Then I whacked pan mee. ah, bliss.


rockclimbing and 4 more hours of kickboxing tomorrow! cant wait!

I'd trick myself into thinking you are the atoms fabricated by my restless mind.

Did a lot of thinking, heard a lot of opinions.


I cant believe I fell into that trap of thinking you're worth something to somebody, only to have it blow up in your face with a "I dont know what we are, or where we're heading"-excuse. When I think things through, do we really thread the same fabric? Or am I just infatuated because you are? that someone as nice/good looking/sweet could fall for a person like me? ( no self-bashing here folks, it is what it is with local boys ). That you make me feel comfortable in these cells of mine, drawing up chemicals I've never felt before, staring deep into my eyes, your weight on mine. Is it YOU I'm crazy about? or what you DO?

Is it me you like, or is it the things that I do?

damnit, I need to disappear to another/state/country soon. where's that backpack of mine?

I should shower,

but ill be washing off the scent of your skin that has been lingering on mine all day.