suitcase skeletons

my head feels hot from a pulsing headache. I hate crying, as it makes it worse.

But, I could really feel the extra kilos ive put on, today's subjects and topics were really tough, my biology lecturer made me look stupid in front of my whole class at my question, I had a 40 min argument with my classmate about money vs happiness and lost ; shaking the core of my belief, mindfucking my head ( brain? ) , and to top it all off, my siblings are with my parents ( & omera ) and I'm home alone ( again ). Ive seen my parents 3 ,4 times since they came back and they're leaving Friday morning. My parents are way over in Shah Alam, catching a cab would not only be expensive but the thought of being in a cab that long with a stranger at traffic hour? no. OH AND I DIDNT SEE MY BROTHER BEFORE HE WENT FOR THE SHOW. NOW I WONT SEE OR HEAR FROM HIM IN 3 FUCKING MONTHS.


It feels like I fell to the ground and I'm being trampled upon. Over and over and over.